I can't lie I sometimes wonder if life would be better if I didn't push myself further over the past year or so. Going back to having a part time job and only focusing on that and college and doing everything by the book. Doing everything in college just to then go to uni for 3 years, and work for someone after that's all done.
Id love to do that in some situations, specifically when it comes to dealing with HMRC and owning a business, but I think that's just what you to deal with at one point or another. I honestly don't know.
Additionally finding inspiration with writing and painting, actually having to be creative without a specific topic. Don't get me wrong I'm grateful for being my own boss and doing what I do now, not having set hours. Seeing numbers going into something I created and something I own is insane, being able to control everything on here etc. I love it however like I need to keep on top of it, and if I don't i'm gonna regret it heavily. Which is something I really don't want to do.
I honestly just think I'm burnt completely. Like I don't have much to write about. Like life is going brilliant right now, i'm in a stable ish position as on now, where I don't have to stress as much. I sill will and I still am. realised if I don't I won't get far with this, its just gonna end up sitting still, and standing still is boring in my opinion.
Im just waffling on at this point, I love that. This is just my diary but it's here for everyone to read. But since last month we had mental health awareness week, thought i'd share how its going. I can't lie, i'm loving life as of right now but I am burnt out. But you know what, that's absolutely fine. But if I do go silent for a few days/weeks, everything's fine. Having a break to refresh don't mean you gave up.
That was me, Nik. I'll see you all again this next month at the same time, love you all so very much. Message me on instagram or email me if you feel like sharing how you're feeling or your experience with any of this. Thank you for reading and waisting your time on reading. Bye bye xx